He's still there...

Before Nina was conceived I was pregnent. I never expected I'd be pregnent so soon after having Amin. I tried to sweep away the thought of having to burden myself with another baby when Amin was barely a year old. But within a month I miscarried the child. This destroyed me because whatever my circumstances I wanted that child. I wanted to have that baby and be sure that it would always know that it was loved.

I convinced myself that had the child survived he would have been a boy and I even gave him a name, Munzir! He'd be 10 now. I think about him all the time and although time heals I will never get over it. I blame myself for what happened... Astaghfirullah.